There are so many things I want to write about today.   I wake up every morning with a new blog entry in my head and fall asleep compiling new stories.  I am constantly writing and re-writing blogs in my mind until I can get to a computer and put them down on “paper”.   I’ve become a blogger, through and through.  And I want to thank you, my audience, for the inspiration to keep writing.  The last 10 months have been very interesting and I’m glad you were along for the ride.

Unfortunately, I knew one day this blog would have to end.  No one wants to date a “sex blogger”, at least not seriously.  The past year I’ve enjoyed being single very much.  Like my friend C. says, “You’re great single…  But you don’t like it.”  And he’s right.  I’m great on my own.  I am a fun, happy single girl.  But, in the end, I do eventually want a husband and family.  Not today, not tomorrow, but eventually.  And that starts with finding someone who wants to date me for more than 3 weeks.  And a relationship can’t last when it’s shared with the world, or blogosphere.

That being said, it is time for this blogger to turn in her keyboard. At least until I’m back to being the angry, single girl again.  It’s funny, for the past year I’ve been looking for a very specific person. I thought I knew what I wanted.  I’ve written about it, and have been struggling to find “the one” – if he even exists.  But when I finally got what I thought I wanted, it wasn’t right.  You can’t find a guy based on a checklist, or online dating description or an automatic search function.   It just doesn’t work like that.

I had to have some stranger, who doesn’t even know me, pick out a guy for me to go on a random date with based on a stupid online questionnaire.  And they chose someone I never would have picked for myself.  And it worked!  We probably would have lived in this city for years and never met otherwise.  (Yes, I’m talking about the datelab date.)

I’m not saying this is going to last forever, or even for more than a few weeks.  It’d be nice if it did, but that’s not really the point.  I know you’re thinking, “Why are you giving up a blog you’ve had for months for a guy you’ve known for only a few weeks?”  And the answer is, “because no relationship of mine is going to last if I continue to blog.”

I’m at a turning point.  Does this mean I’m going to start staying in every night and knitting?  Of course not.  Does this mean I’m going to stop cheating and start thinking of someone other than myself for a change?  Probably.  Will I need therapy?  Most likely.  This blog was great therapy, but it’s not fair to continue an activity that’s public, one-sided and involves someone else.  And, like I just said, I need to start thinking of other people for a change.

I apologize to all you ex-whatevers out there who may have been hurt by this blog.  It was a lovely experiment.  I will miss it.  I’m sure you won’t.

You can still follow me on Twitter for little updates every now and again.  And, who knows, maybe in a couple months I’ll change my mind yet again and be back writing for the masses.  You never know.

I will keep the site active for the next few weeks.  If you’ve always wanted to write a guest blog but never got around to it, now’s your chance.  Email me at Pretty.Smart.Blogger@gmail.com with your stories and I’ll post them.  Yes, this includes rants, raves & other comments from ex-whatevers.  Try not to be too harsh.

Thank you.

And remember, you are loved.

~ Pretty Smart

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